Third night in

I learned today that not all of my food habits are bad. This was very reassuring. Don't get me wrong, this is still a battle I can't win. But, it is nice to know that the efforts to change my eating habits over the last four years have been on the right track...wait a minute.

Four years! In 2005 (March) is when I began eating better. I stopped frying foods, cut back on my carbs, began eating more whole grains, fruit, vegetables, grilled meat (even in winter). I stopped going to fast food joints for quick meals and when I did start to go back, I got salads. I began exercisinig 3 times a week. And it's been four years of successfull lifestyle eating changes. Unbelievable.

Time to begin showing appreciation for what I do have.
1. 4 years of successful lifestyle changes with food and exercising.
2. A change of thinking when it comes to food and being healthy- regardless of how I do, I have changed the way I think of food and do continue to pay more attention to what I am eating and the ingredients.
3. I have people around me that understand my struggle and support me.
4. God has given me good health.
5. I have the financial means to eat healthier, go to a gym and this spring I bought a bike that I have ridden on average 3 miles a day about 3-4 days a week.
6. A great neighborhood to go for bike rides and walks.
7. Terrific weather this summer that made we want to be outside as much as I could be.
8. A desire to eat better, feel better, and live better.
9. God's love and willingness to carry me through whatever I ask him to.
10. Repeat number 9!

oh yeah- today's eating was not too bad. I made compromises in my eating so it was not a bad food day at all. Eggs, bacon, 1 1/2 pancakes, 1/2 order of hashbrowns for a late breakfast. Went swimming, had an apple, wheat thins and 2 thin slices of co-jack cheese. Dinner was a delicious flat iron steak, rice pilaf, brocoli/cauliflower/carrots, salad. Grant it, again I started to anxious while I was eating, but worked through it, did the dishes right after dinner and asked my love to put away the leftovers for me. Oh...and I left a bite of food on my plate after starting off with less food on my plate to begin with.

thank you God for another victory. I pray for victory tonight as I fear wanting to eat for a substitute for sex, or worse, will have sex to substitute not eating. When you read this, please pray for me that I don't do either!